The problem with an analytical mind is it thinks a lot. And if gets even better company, it goes into over drive.
I think I am pretty much self aware (with an annoyingly strong (sub)conscious which always advocates not being mean). I not only observe myself, I also end up analyzing behavioral patterns of myself, people in my life and sometimes on larger scales (depending on how much free time I have) society.
So it is something related to very mundane. 4 years back when I had to learn electric machines, I did it without much fuss, in spite of knowing I had a phobia for it but very well aware that studying is the only way to pass. 4 years down the line, I am required to study some mathematical stuff which will not be asked in any exam (rather more experimental and research kind of stuff), I do it without any doubts/questions/fuss. Again. Very happy about the entire process. But few days ago I was asked to study those darned machines again and I just could not bring myself to give my 100%. So in this growing old process, my awareness that my life will be better without putting 100% to it, killed the fun/excitement I once found in learning ? [part of this sentence is as put by the even better company I talked about in the first sentence]
So in a sense, in trying to make myself learn something I had 4 years ago, I have to get rid of the baggage of this awareness by un-learning it. Re-learning will not look that hard then. May be.
Attitude, they say, determines your altitude. No wonder Mount Everest looks so tall from here. :-|
~nightflier
P.S. I tried and I failed. Again. Electric Machines are stupid that way :D
also pardon any inconsistent sentences. I have a bad feeling about the grammar here.
I think I am pretty much self aware (with an annoyingly strong (sub)conscious which always advocates not being mean). I not only observe myself, I also end up analyzing behavioral patterns of myself, people in my life and sometimes on larger scales (depending on how much free time I have) society.
So it is something related to very mundane. 4 years back when I had to learn electric machines, I did it without much fuss, in spite of knowing I had a phobia for it but very well aware that studying is the only way to pass. 4 years down the line, I am required to study some mathematical stuff which will not be asked in any exam (rather more experimental and research kind of stuff), I do it without any doubts/questions/fuss. Again. Very happy about the entire process. But few days ago I was asked to study those darned machines again and I just could not bring myself to give my 100%. So in this growing old process, my awareness that my life will be better without putting 100% to it, killed the fun/excitement I once found in learning ? [part of this sentence is as put by the even better company I talked about in the first sentence]
So in a sense, in trying to make myself learn something I had 4 years ago, I have to get rid of the baggage of this awareness by un-learning it. Re-learning will not look that hard then. May be.
Attitude, they say, determines your altitude. No wonder Mount Everest looks so tall from here. :-|
~nightflier
P.S. I tried and I failed. Again. Electric Machines are stupid that way :D
also pardon any inconsistent sentences. I have a bad feeling about the grammar here.
post nahi samjha!! :D:D But then again, good luck with whatever you are trying to achieve..learn/ un-learn/re-learn? (btw, these 3 words, tongue twister) :D :)
ReplyDeleteI hated electrical machines! but that doesn't mean I weren't attracted to them :)
ReplyDeleteHmm, mere ko bhi nahi chamka...and I had my project thesis on machines :D
ReplyDeleteElectrical Machines - would always remain special to me...have lot of good memories of labs...
Attitude, they say, determines your altitude. No wonder Mount Everest looks so tall from here. :-| Well Said!
ReplyDelete@Nepo : mujhe bhi nahi samjha what I was trying to write and what I ended up doing! ;)
ReplyDelete@Upasna : Same pattern. Guess its not just machines, many other things in life as well ;)
@Calvin : Wow! Project on machines. In my world, only geeks can accomplish that :D
@Tanvi : :)
I didn't accomplish it, and hence got an extension (where I changed to a different project :P)...special as in, have wonderful memories of those labs, and how we were scared of them...and never managed to get the right readings, which we later manipulated...
ReplyDeleteeven taking up a project on machines is an accomplishment, no ? :)
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