He said to her with tears in his eyes 'May be we should give us a chance once.'
She smiled and looked into his eyes. They had a petulant charm in them. With her hand in his, his heavily sedated brain dozed off.
And she thought about the night the call came. From city hospital. His bike had met with a minor accident leaving him injured. And the hospital staff had found her number as 'in case of emergency'.
For 2 days without any sleep she stood by his side, watched over him, took care of him, sobbing when he was asleep. He would wake out of his periodic slumbers and talk about the old days. How things had turned out and how they both were alone again. She just listened. For being with him meant the world to her.
With the thought of saying yes to his idea of getting back together she slept that night. For the first time in 3 days.
The next morning she woke up to an empty bed. Thinking he might be in the toilet she readied herself, only, to find out later that he had discharged himself very early in the morning.
And then she saw the dominoe castle falling in front of her eyes. May be some windows are never supposed to open. Not even under the pretense of sedatives.
~nightflier
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
my tick off list
Picked up the tag from here.
And since I specialize in lists, thought owing to the thought currents right now, this looks the most suitable topic to write on! :D
To think of it, I had always thought I am pretty immune (passive more like) to get ticked off easily by anything.
And I have realized overestimating one's capacities is something I am really good at!
So 'these are the 10 things that tick me off'.
1. Insincerity.
2. Excessive obsession with one's looks and appearance. Still dont understand when people can spend hours and hours in front of the mirror admiring themselves!
3. Loud talkers on phone. Megaphones as I call them, sometimes. It is extremely annoying!
4. Compulsive dominating nature. I am a saggittarian, the free spirit and blah lover. So such people should back off.
5. Taking someone for granted, without any regard to their feelings or state of mind.
6. Wasting food.
7. People passing regional comments about others without any knowledge of the culture they are talking about. For that matter dividing India in 2 parts, South and North and passing judgements. And more irritating part is groupism based on divides such as languages, food (vegetarian, non-vegetarian), culture etc.
8. 'Kya fark/farak padta hai' (what difference does it make). What kareena kapoor wore to the premier of Kal aaj Kal, definitely falls in this category. But such comments against unfair injustice just put me off. I might even consider judging the person as being shallow.
9. So who is your favourite bollywood actor. My answer - Shah Rukh Khan. And then some really stupid stuff about him being arrogant and blah blah thrown at me. Really ? I have my reasons/excuses for the stuff/people I like/admire. Banter I understand, but the need to get all elementary school about likes and dislikes, I find it childish. Same applies when people roll their eyes about Harry Potter, without having the bleakest idea about what its all about. Its not at all uncool if you haven't read or watched it. (If you can justify it i.e. :P)
10. People who force food habits on others. Forcing (aagrah in a politer tone) someone to eat something is fine to some extent, but to the point of compulsion is kind of annoying. Isn't it ?
And thus I rest my case.
Cliche.
~nightflier
And since I specialize in lists, thought owing to the thought currents right now, this looks the most suitable topic to write on! :D
To think of it, I had always thought I am pretty immune (passive more like) to get ticked off easily by anything.
And I have realized overestimating one's capacities is something I am really good at!
So 'these are the 10 things that tick me off'.
1. Insincerity.
2. Excessive obsession with one's looks and appearance. Still dont understand when people can spend hours and hours in front of the mirror admiring themselves!
3. Loud talkers on phone. Megaphones as I call them, sometimes. It is extremely annoying!
4. Compulsive dominating nature. I am a saggittarian, the free spirit and blah lover. So such people should back off.
5. Taking someone for granted, without any regard to their feelings or state of mind.
6. Wasting food.
7. People passing regional comments about others without any knowledge of the culture they are talking about. For that matter dividing India in 2 parts, South and North and passing judgements. And more irritating part is groupism based on divides such as languages, food (vegetarian, non-vegetarian), culture etc.
8. 'Kya fark/farak padta hai' (what difference does it make). What kareena kapoor wore to the premier of Kal aaj Kal, definitely falls in this category. But such comments against unfair injustice just put me off. I might even consider judging the person as being shallow.
9. So who is your favourite bollywood actor. My answer - Shah Rukh Khan. And then some really stupid stuff about him being arrogant and blah blah thrown at me. Really ? I have my reasons/excuses for the stuff/people I like/admire. Banter I understand, but the need to get all elementary school about likes and dislikes, I find it childish. Same applies when people roll their eyes about Harry Potter, without having the bleakest idea about what its all about. Its not at all uncool if you haven't read or watched it. (If you can justify it i.e. :P)
10. People who force food habits on others. Forcing (aagrah in a politer tone) someone to eat something is fine to some extent, but to the point of compulsion is kind of annoying. Isn't it ?
And thus I rest my case.
Cliche.
~nightflier
Saturday, June 19, 2010
few points me..
1. I think its torture to have your ex-employer in your network (read facebook, twitter, blogger, etc). Its like having to have a forced relationship with your ex. Every time someone new (a new hire) enters their life, you have to learn to ignore it or bear the heartache of why not me ??? In case of an ex you at least have the liberty to make a choice and not stay in touch. But after all the fundas of social networking that you have gulped down, one feels obliged to not sever ties in such (employee-employer) cases. Its like having to wait for someone else (a new employer) to be actually able to move on. Life is hard. I hope I manage to remain civil until someone else comes along.
2. I had decided to be strong and not show any human emotions about the whole situation. It seems I have no control over myself :P So having started the post on a seemingly sad (not tear inducing sad, but a more literal bleh! sad) note, I need to take corrective action. So lately I am on this lets gain some pounds mission. I have always been for following a routine when it comes to a diet. Like eating healthy, fresh food 5-6 times a day. This time the difference is measuring the calories and making sure I surpass whatever is required for me to survive. Not difficult. But needs a good memory to keep track. So with stick notes in and around my space, I am surrounded by calories. Just that in this case, we are on the other side of the weighing scale. Rare, eh ?
3. Those of you who are up for documentaries and stuff, should definitely catch the show called Vanguard. I got interested in it when I read the news of a US journo getting detained in Korea and Bill Clinton flying down to rescue them and then the journo naming her kid after him. (I still think I got interested in the news in the first place cos of him..still find him kind of cute :P) Nevertheless, its very informative and opens you eyes to globalization in a new light. I am hooked to it as of now.
4. As my dreams start becoming more materialistic (like buying pretty clothes to make yourself feel good, accessorizing for no particular reason) and less spiritual, I wonder if this change is happening for any good ? Since I kind of spent all my pre silver jubilee years in 'I dont care about all the above things' philosophy, I think this was bound to happen. Life is all about balance. Hoping that I find the balancing zero average case sooner or later.
5. And I think there is a dearth of girl/female programmers in the world today (wow! I feel like I am talking for some humanitarian cause :P). That is one field girls should start taking seriously. I am bored of people rolling their eyes at me, when told that I can code in this, this and this language. I dont think girls have any less logical reasoning than guys. It is laziness and an attitude problem me thinks. We should not let the guys get away with all the emerging cool things. Please join the cause and dont grimace at the sound of coding. It can be fun if taken with a pinch of salt!
And thus I am done with my weekly updates. Dont forget to catch my movie recommendations and give feedback. Remember feedback is important in any social interaction venture. :P
~nightflier
2. I had decided to be strong and not show any human emotions about the whole situation. It seems I have no control over myself :P So having started the post on a seemingly sad (not tear inducing sad, but a more literal bleh! sad) note, I need to take corrective action. So lately I am on this lets gain some pounds mission. I have always been for following a routine when it comes to a diet. Like eating healthy, fresh food 5-6 times a day. This time the difference is measuring the calories and making sure I surpass whatever is required for me to survive. Not difficult. But needs a good memory to keep track. So with stick notes in and around my space, I am surrounded by calories. Just that in this case, we are on the other side of the weighing scale. Rare, eh ?
3. Those of you who are up for documentaries and stuff, should definitely catch the show called Vanguard. I got interested in it when I read the news of a US journo getting detained in Korea and Bill Clinton flying down to rescue them and then the journo naming her kid after him. (I still think I got interested in the news in the first place cos of him..still find him kind of cute :P) Nevertheless, its very informative and opens you eyes to globalization in a new light. I am hooked to it as of now.
4. As my dreams start becoming more materialistic (like buying pretty clothes to make yourself feel good, accessorizing for no particular reason) and less spiritual, I wonder if this change is happening for any good ? Since I kind of spent all my pre silver jubilee years in 'I dont care about all the above things' philosophy, I think this was bound to happen. Life is all about balance. Hoping that I find the balancing zero average case sooner or later.
5. And I think there is a dearth of girl/female programmers in the world today (wow! I feel like I am talking for some humanitarian cause :P). That is one field girls should start taking seriously. I am bored of people rolling their eyes at me, when told that I can code in this, this and this language. I dont think girls have any less logical reasoning than guys. It is laziness and an attitude problem me thinks. We should not let the guys get away with all the emerging cool things. Please join the cause and dont grimace at the sound of coding. It can be fun if taken with a pinch of salt!
And thus I am done with my weekly updates. Dont forget to catch my movie recommendations and give feedback. Remember feedback is important in any social interaction venture. :P
~nightflier
Friday, June 18, 2010
Always an Indian
Read Priya Ramani's article a long time ago (when it got published i.e.). Though people ripped her apart on twitter for being so open about her judgemental opinions, I had mixed feelings about it.
And then Great Bong published this. Which I think is a really amazing post. He doesnt throw bricks at anyone but so aptly puts his point across.
Both articles are thought provoking. But I agree more with the latter for its democratic stance.
On a personal note, I think people everywhere are basically the same. Culture, surroundings, situations set apart their identities. May be. After all it always boils down to the conundrum of existence and identity, which is very individual to every existence. I am running in circles here, aint I ?
~nightflier
And then Great Bong published this. Which I think is a really amazing post. He doesnt throw bricks at anyone but so aptly puts his point across.
Both articles are thought provoking. But I agree more with the latter for its democratic stance.
On a personal note, I think people everywhere are basically the same. Culture, surroundings, situations set apart their identities. May be. After all it always boils down to the conundrum of existence and identity, which is very individual to every existence. I am running in circles here, aint I ?
~nightflier
Monday, June 7, 2010
to all the concerned friends
To all the people stated above,
Me losing the job is not the end of the world. The very moment when my then would be HR expressed concern over me not receiving work authorization, I had a gut feeling that this is not going to work out. Sometimes however positive you are, your instinct tells you that this is it. And that just happened with me.
Though I did give a good fight (trying to negotiate with the HR and trying to communicate with stupid USCIS and stupider international center at school) before deciding to be patient and mature. As a growing up gift, life has taught me to let go of things. And with great pains, I have learned my lessons. This incident just gives me a chance to apply that theory :P And I am trying to do that. So when you still ask me (over and over again) why you did not do this or that (rather you should have done this or that), I just have one thing to say, let it go pal :P [Better still come to play tennis with me. It is superrrr fun!]
For I seriously cannot beg anyone to let me work beyond a limit. Nor can I tell white lies (except when I have to pull a prank).
I am quite serious about my career. And I also think I have what it takes to find another job :D
~nightflier
P.S. for those who still don't understand, such situations bring along a lot of negativity, lack of confidence, frustration, self pity, irritation, loss of appetite, self isolation and related tendencies. So give up mate!
Me losing the job is not the end of the world. The very moment when my then would be HR expressed concern over me not receiving work authorization, I had a gut feeling that this is not going to work out. Sometimes however positive you are, your instinct tells you that this is it. And that just happened with me.
Though I did give a good fight (trying to negotiate with the HR and trying to communicate with stupid USCIS and stupider international center at school) before deciding to be patient and mature. As a growing up gift, life has taught me to let go of things. And with great pains, I have learned my lessons. This incident just gives me a chance to apply that theory :P And I am trying to do that. So when you still ask me (over and over again) why you did not do this or that (rather you should have done this or that), I just have one thing to say, let it go pal :P [Better still come to play tennis with me. It is superrrr fun!]
For I seriously cannot beg anyone to let me work beyond a limit. Nor can I tell white lies (except when I have to pull a prank).
I am quite serious about my career. And I also think I have what it takes to find another job :D
~nightflier
P.S. for those who still don't understand, such situations bring along a lot of negativity, lack of confidence, frustration, self pity, irritation, loss of appetite, self isolation and related tendencies. So give up mate!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
My inevitable change
The blog needed a change (of template/design/content/structure) for a long time now. And nothing can beat my indecisiveness in this matter. I have been hunting and searching for a template who sweeps me off my feet (love at first sight types). And since I don't like whatever is available on the web, I am thinking of creating something myself with all the duniya bhar ke tools available. Daunting task that is!
Anyhooooo, point is since that has taken a different lane, I thought might as well entertain you guys and myself with some dedicated content.
The self proclaimed movie critic inside me has been doing summersaults to grab attention on this self obsessed blog (buff more like who can't help but give her opinions about any movie she watches). A mere 10 out of 270 something posts ratio has made her a bit suicidal. The immediate treatment has involved giving her a room of her own with stuff to play with. So you will find This week (that year) at the top of the blog, below the header to be accurate. I plan to put 2 movie recommendations per week in that space. Now I know how much you all adore (care for ?) reviews and hence I am going to try to describe why I like/recommend the movie. So the said person whose life we are trying to save gets a prolonged existence and you feel responsible for the after effects of listening to my views.
Lately my reading habits have become really erratic. I have multiple books on my reading pane. None of which I have managed to finish. So this is going to track my progress with each book that I have touched. I hope this venture lives really long. Otherwise the sad future of my would be kids looms in front of my eyes. Depressing!
Also did I tell you about the brand new chamakta Tennis star on the scene? Yours truly. Ahem!
Yesterday clad in my flipflops and skinny jeans I made my international debut. After the sad demise of Sania from tennis to the wrong side of the court, I thought may be it was time to take responsibility for Tennis's future.
Kidding! I am not that deluded. Not specially after failing to land 5 consecutive serves in the right side of the court. But today was better with sneakers and no skinny jeans (but tennis shorts, you dirty mind!). And tennis is fun, specially if you dont care a speck about the rules on the court.
Still prefer watching it over playing it. Convenience. That reminds me this time Nadal will sweetly take french open no ?
Is there anything else, I should dabble in ?
~nightflier
Anyhooooo, point is since that has taken a different lane, I thought might as well entertain you guys and myself with some dedicated content.
The self proclaimed movie critic inside me has been doing summersaults to grab attention on this self obsessed blog (buff more like who can't help but give her opinions about any movie she watches). A mere 10 out of 270 something posts ratio has made her a bit suicidal. The immediate treatment has involved giving her a room of her own with stuff to play with. So you will find This week (that year) at the top of the blog, below the header to be accurate. I plan to put 2 movie recommendations per week in that space. Now I know how much you all adore (care for ?) reviews and hence I am going to try to describe why I like/recommend the movie. So the said person whose life we are trying to save gets a prolonged existence and you feel responsible for the after effects of listening to my views.
Lately my reading habits have become really erratic. I have multiple books on my reading pane. None of which I have managed to finish. So this is going to track my progress with each book that I have touched. I hope this venture lives really long. Otherwise the sad future of my would be kids looms in front of my eyes. Depressing!
Also did I tell you about the brand new chamakta Tennis star on the scene? Yours truly. Ahem!
Yesterday clad in my flipflops and skinny jeans I made my international debut. After the sad demise of Sania from tennis to the wrong side of the court, I thought may be it was time to take responsibility for Tennis's future.
Kidding! I am not that deluded. Not specially after failing to land 5 consecutive serves in the right side of the court. But today was better with sneakers and no skinny jeans (but tennis shorts, you dirty mind!). And tennis is fun, specially if you dont care a speck about the rules on the court.
Still prefer watching it over playing it. Convenience. That reminds me this time Nadal will sweetly take french open no ?
Is there anything else, I should dabble in ?
~nightflier
Friday, May 28, 2010
Sex: 1, City: 1, Two: 0
[The title of this post has been unabashedly picked up from Roger Ebert's tweet.]
One line review. Sex and the City 2 is about utter escapism. Read on if you still care to know more.
Seriously if there had to be a more preposterous show of glamour, fashion and mindlessness then it could not have been better than this. Oh wait! Did I just use the word 'better'? Ughhh..
The TV show was amazing. The girls and their characters were not mere caricatures but real beings. It was not the usual fluff and drama that one expects from chick-flick stuff. As in it had brains and was sensible. They ended it well when the last single girl on the planet called Manhattan gets hooked up. Now that was intelligent.
Oh and it was an ode to NYC. And one of the most fabulous ones. It had a heart, one which would definitely connect with you.
But then they decided to show us extravagant chic weddings, PMS (pre marital syndrome) for men, some emotional drama and more girl bonding. So they made a movie out of the whole enterprise. Groan. The candid affair which the show had with its audiences got stretched a bit further. But at least it was an earnest attempt. One would not exactly cry with Carrie for Big's betrayal, but sit back and see all the bollywood style emotional atyaachaar. (And I seriously want to thank Bollywood for improving my tolerance levels when it comes to non sense).
But you know what happened next ? This time the girls (who are old women disguised in the most gaudy fashion ever) have some really REAL issues on hands and mind. So they thought they had a real storyline for another movie. Again wait, did I just use the word 'real' for the third time ?
Check this:
1. A 50 something woman undergoing Menopause
2. Being a full time mother of 2
3. Balance between work and home and did I say a draconian boss and right to be heard at work place
4. Wanting to lead a childless life/marriage, in a society where marriage binds you to a child's existence
But remember when in lala land, you just dress up in weirdest wardrobes and raise your cocktails to these issues and say cheers 'to women who manage all this without any help'. Set on a phony setting of these issues and women's liberation in the middle east, the movie tries to be intelligent, funny, sexy and stylish. It ends up getting on your nerves for being shallow, materialistic, whiny and horny (read Samantha Jones). SATC is known and adored for its wit and fun quotient. But the jokes here dont even make one laugh. Not even Samantha's wearing her sex drive on her sleeve ones.
I have had this issue with Hindi movies for a long time now, that the directors/script writers touch a really sensitive chord and then totally ignore it or make a standing joke out of it. Guess the bug is spreading. BIG DISAPPOINTMENT.
Now talking about the characters. Samantha Jones is the biggest letdown. This is the most outrageous character in the entire run of the show. They cross all the thin lines between cheap and sensible, vulgar and sexy and leave us to abhor this one, in the movie. (But I still admire Kim Catrall for being so open and outspoken about everything). Carrie's independence and indecisiveness gets converted to senseless rants and stupidity. Somehow the director spares Miranda and Charlotte. Oh wait, they do crib about having help and still not being able to be good mothers. Kudos to them!
I just have an earnest request for all the people involved in making this, please dont come up with a third movie. I adore the show and I can live with its re-runs. Please dont mutilate some really heartfelt characters which I have come to admire.
And girls out there, watch the movie at your own risk.
~nightflier
P.S. there are some better reviews which thrash the movie in a hilarious way. Do check them out, for these will certainly provide you with wicked laughs.
http://www.thestranger.com/seattle/burkas-and-birkins/Content?oid=4132715
One line review. Sex and the City 2 is about utter escapism. Read on if you still care to know more.
Seriously if there had to be a more preposterous show of glamour, fashion and mindlessness then it could not have been better than this. Oh wait! Did I just use the word 'better'? Ughhh..
The TV show was amazing. The girls and their characters were not mere caricatures but real beings. It was not the usual fluff and drama that one expects from chick-flick stuff. As in it had brains and was sensible. They ended it well when the last single girl on the planet called Manhattan gets hooked up. Now that was intelligent.
Oh and it was an ode to NYC. And one of the most fabulous ones. It had a heart, one which would definitely connect with you.
But then they decided to show us extravagant chic weddings, PMS (pre marital syndrome) for men, some emotional drama and more girl bonding. So they made a movie out of the whole enterprise. Groan. The candid affair which the show had with its audiences got stretched a bit further. But at least it was an earnest attempt. One would not exactly cry with Carrie for Big's betrayal, but sit back and see all the bollywood style emotional atyaachaar. (And I seriously want to thank Bollywood for improving my tolerance levels when it comes to non sense).
But you know what happened next ? This time the girls (who are old women disguised in the most gaudy fashion ever) have some really REAL issues on hands and mind. So they thought they had a real storyline for another movie. Again wait, did I just use the word 'real' for the third time ?
Check this:
1. A 50 something woman undergoing Menopause
2. Being a full time mother of 2
3. Balance between work and home and did I say a draconian boss and right to be heard at work place
4. Wanting to lead a childless life/marriage, in a society where marriage binds you to a child's existence
But remember when in lala land, you just dress up in weirdest wardrobes and raise your cocktails to these issues and say cheers 'to women who manage all this without any help'. Set on a phony setting of these issues and women's liberation in the middle east, the movie tries to be intelligent, funny, sexy and stylish. It ends up getting on your nerves for being shallow, materialistic, whiny and horny (read Samantha Jones). SATC is known and adored for its wit and fun quotient. But the jokes here dont even make one laugh. Not even Samantha's wearing her sex drive on her sleeve ones.
I have had this issue with Hindi movies for a long time now, that the directors/script writers touch a really sensitive chord and then totally ignore it or make a standing joke out of it. Guess the bug is spreading. BIG DISAPPOINTMENT.
Now talking about the characters. Samantha Jones is the biggest letdown. This is the most outrageous character in the entire run of the show. They cross all the thin lines between cheap and sensible, vulgar and sexy and leave us to abhor this one, in the movie. (But I still admire Kim Catrall for being so open and outspoken about everything). Carrie's independence and indecisiveness gets converted to senseless rants and stupidity. Somehow the director spares Miranda and Charlotte. Oh wait, they do crib about having help and still not being able to be good mothers. Kudos to them!
I just have an earnest request for all the people involved in making this, please dont come up with a third movie. I adore the show and I can live with its re-runs. Please dont mutilate some really heartfelt characters which I have come to admire.
And girls out there, watch the movie at your own risk.
~nightflier
P.S. there are some better reviews which thrash the movie in a hilarious way. Do check them out, for these will certainly provide you with wicked laughs.
http://www.thestranger.com/seattle/burkas-and-birkins/Content?oid=4132715
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