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Wednesday, November 23, 2011

one wish for today

It's allowed to be cheesy/soppy about oneself on birthdays. After all the hindi film values one has imbibed, it becomes mandatory.


So allowing myself the right of not growing up enough when required, I would say I grew up a long time back. On those little occasions when it was least expected.


Allison keys/clarke says, 'Sometimes the best way to move into the unknown is to take familiar steps, small steps. To do ordinary things to deal with something that is in no way ordinary. We're always going someplace new, all the time. Familiar things just let us pretend that we aren't moving into unfamiliar territory. You take those small familiar steps, and you try to be honest, not to live as if nothing had changed but still to go on with your life. But there are times when what you need is a piece of how things used to be.'


Oh and she is hardly 8. 
So I hope to talk to people, a lot of whom I have not been in touch with out of choice or otherwise, today. To feel familiar.


One last birthday wish this. Promise.


~nightflier

Saturday, November 19, 2011

The art of making a snowman - Reloaded!

Since Winter Has Come (Yes, I am a fan of the series and will use this line till the end of the world :P) and there will be no snow in swades and I would like to celebrate the thanksgiving week playing make-believe, here is something from my closet. 


The idea to shoot in frames and then make a video came from this ingenious mind. I was thankfully left to being myself. In the fun Chicago winter! Oh and there is a rainbow in the background as well, if you notice :)
[College band's real hero playing in the background]


Have fun watching! Happy thanksgiving week in advance!


~nightflier

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

this birthday's advance wish

'I need to be happy. I need to be secure. On my own.'

I don't compare my life with anyone's. Truth. I am human. Truth. But when I am deeply dissatisfied by/with some things (which I directly cannot change) around it happens automatically. A creepy feeling sits inside my head. And then I dread even getting out of bed. Like this Wednesday. I acted like a 6 year old who feigns illness to avoid school and stayed home. For no reason. I did some outdoor work just to let some fresh air inside my otherwise sodden head. The restlessness just did not go away. It remained. Some inventions in the kitchen helped. Staying away from the laptop and internet helped. 

So may be going ahead, I should wish to get rid of such Wednesdays. Initially may be just learn to avoid gracefully ? And for that 'I need to be happy. I need to be secure. On my own.'

An ok wish. You think ?

~nightflier

P.S. There was a slight chill in the air today. Also I wore socks to work today. Winter is coming. :)

Monday, November 14, 2011

on finding conflict


Day before I was watching rockstar (which I liked for its nuances despite overall it being an ok movie with the most beautiful dud for an heroine) and it got me thinking about conflicts. There are some people, emotions, definitions in life about whom/which I still feel really conflicted. In extremes. Sometimes. And I do believe that has triggered a lot of thinking on my part, which has shaped my outlook towards life in general. Of course, I write as if this is my afterlife. Oh well.

And that's why I think I liked Imtiaz Ali's attempt, where he tries to capture the conflict in a not-so-abnormally brought up JJ. I liked that little scene where the erstwhile buffoon JJ thrashes his sister-in-law for being too touchy feely. Also loved the scene where Nargis says yes even before Jordan asks her the question. (That's the only place she did justice to that thing called 'acting'). And JJ's divine intervention moment in faya kun (What beautiful song, been listening to it with tum ko and katiya karu for the past 4 hours). And the turmoil when Nargis is trying to run away from Jordan. So yes, I liked the attempt to show troubled or not so lives of the protagonists. It made me care about Jordan, even if very very late in the movie.

So telling that conflict may give rise to the best or the worst of us, is like saying 2+2 equals 4. At a certain level, I do want my life conflict free, to attain that level of calm and peace which zen gurus have. But then may be for normal people, conflict is the only way to attain peace. No ? (2 biographies which I read recently, steve jobs and andre agassi, namely re-iterate this. Or so I felt).

Oh, and have you felt conflicted? Ever?

[ I had goosebumps all over during the first 3 minutes of the movie. Rehman's built up music does that. But the most I felt touched, the music and voice hitting straight my heart, was when the subdued Kavita Krishnamurthy track started playing at the end.]



~nightflier

P.S. Also KT agrees. So I am not alone in liking the movie :D

Thursday, November 3, 2011

finding treasure

Every time during a long holiday (specially diwali) at home, we visit aai's parents. (well, baba's father passed away when he was 19, so he pretty much grew up with lots of responsibilities and really looked upto aai's father. Plus other granny lived with us. We don't have much biases otherwise.)
Aai always tells her mother (my aaji, granny) that  we are so lucky, as we got all this grandparents' love while growing up. Aaji's and aajoba's  (grandfather) parents passed away when they were really young. Hence. Aai thinks all this is very special. We normally take it for granted. Don't we all ?


As a kid, aai used to write letters with all her out-of-station rakhis. I learnt from her and continued the tradition well through college (afterwards I got into work and grew up :(). So much that I would write letters to aaji-aajoba complaining about aai too! Talk of pay back! Just out of making conversations with aai's brothers and sisters in law, I used to address everyone in my letters. Aajoba always replied to my letters. In the most literary way. With marathi verses and cryptic words. He would give gandhi references too! Sometimes it used to take me aai's help to even read them properly and make sense. 
I was his first grand kids who left town for education and he wrote me a 3 page letter telling me to never get home sick and how to work towards one's ambitions. I did not understand any of it much then. 
He followed स्वावलंबन  (self dependence) all through his life. He used to go for long walks, wash his own clothes and thali (dinner/lunch plate). When we were visiting and otherwise as well, he would go to the market and pick the freshest vegetables for us. Sometimes he would pack some stuff with aai, saying we lived in cities where we don't get to eat the fresh veggies. It would amuse us and we would roll our eyes.


Aajoba passed away 2 years back in the most bizarre manner. We are still uncomfortable talking about it. 
And then all the things aai says about being special suddenly strike me. And during this year's visit it gnawed at me.


I still carry all his letters with me. They are my treasure. He was a voracious reader. Aai has most of his books. I think she has found her treasure too!


~nightflier

Monday, October 31, 2011

The why of innovation


Blog post is a result of the post (must read alert!) Upasna wrote which prompted me to write about my experiences!
[A quick note for Upasna: I know I took more than a week to finally post it. But the more I thought over it the more I got material, inside my head. So thanks for making the grey matter churn! :) Have tried to keep it shorter though!]

I am an engineer by education and a student by profession (I know it sounds clichéd but this is my standard answer to aai, who is often intrigued by why I take up obscure things to learn).
My 4 years of undergraduate studies might not have taught me much theoretically/practically, considering how crammed up the system was and how I never got along with some course material. But the one thing, I stress over and over again, it has done is, open my mind. And the decision to study further and some extremely awesome *chance* experiences restored that fact and brought me face to face with research and innovation. Bundled together.

Even though some of the brightest and smartest people I know are pursuing their doctoral degrees, I am not naïve enough to believe that all innovation comes out of a lab where a bunch of thick spectacled scientists are working rigorously on a mathematical equation which will reduce the child death rate in under privileged countries. (of course I believe in magic and applied mathematics being able to solve almost any problem). May be innovation comes out of need. Of a mother whose child refuses to eat any vegetable except potato and then she starts making stuffed parathas with different vegetables. May be sometimes its just epiphany (divine intervention mayhaps?) that a particular task could be achieved if done in a particular way. Or just the need to simplify things (like mr. Jobs did with his intuitive UIs).

And in this regard, I feel compelled to share my recent experiences.
It was a *chance* afternoon session with some university representative from a giant corporation where he pitched the company to dreamy eyed students. At the end of the session, he told something about a technology competition. I was not at all interested in the jobs he discussed, so to prove myself as a winner who took home something from the session, I told 2 of my brightest friends about this competition. They readily jumped in. We submitted our first business plan and prototype video, got selected to national finals. And during the preparation on the project, which aimed at connecting people interested in social welfare across the world, at every point technology proved to be an enabler to solve a real life issue.
And not just that, it was weirdly empowering to see some uber geeks, working on solving problems concerning the common people. Not only that during various product demos (students are the best targets for such advertising!) the geeks around me were thinking, how they could take that piece of hardware and customize it to their research needs. Again stressing – mind opener.
My highest point was explaining school kids, teachers, reps from a senator’s office about how a bunch of mathematical equations could really simplify how people shared resources. (Had James Cameron visited our booth, may be I could have talked about home tree and all, Avatar being a smash hit of that year) So taking an extremely naïve idea out there and making people understand it, felt really satisfying to me. Also interesting to note that, the team that won consisted of 3 medicine students (and an engineer if I am correct) working on a mobile application for detecting vascular diseases like diabetes to help people in rural areas where equipment is still an issue.
So may be innovation comes from a girl’s need to justify time well spent and two geeks’ capacity to think beyond their lab work to solve real life issues. The 'where' doesn't really matter.


My other anecdote is more personal. How twitter has changed my life. I have totally grown tired of main stream journalism. Even newspapers. So when people talk about information overload and what not, twitter has streamlined and filtered that information for me. I feel more aware, more connected, by each day to my surroundings, the world, in a very impersonal way. Plus twitter for the most of the time is full of literary awesomeness, dry wit and humor. #win. #always.
And this innovation they say came out of another behemoth’s lair.

And of course, not all technology suits all. There are some things which I have not yet experienced or may never. But whatever I think may make my life simpler, enjoyable, comfortable will definitely be a part of my life. And as Mr. Jobs says, Upasna agrees and I concur, ‘technology married to liberal arts and humanities makes our heart sing.’

And now may be, most innovations will (still do) come out of intermixing these.
And that's why even I agree that it doesn't matter from where the innovation has come, as long as some process for some end user gets simplified and product experience has been enriched. If the technology touches even a single person's life in a positive way, then that's a definite 'innovation' #win.

~nightflier

Sunday, October 30, 2011

diwali week in picture(s)

Happy (belated) diwali to everyone!


my diwali rangoli!!
My unexpected blogging break happened over this one week, owing to various reasons.
Anywho, looking forward to a lot of randomness which has been planned.


cheerio!


~nightflier